I don’t know if today’s class was the worst or the best class at this time.
It’s a period of stress and crisis. I feel like I’m failing myself and the course. I am suffocating. I’m blocked in my art making. I feel like my mind is about to blow up. I thought I could deal with all of this, but I’m struggling a lot.
The class today helped in making me feel less alone in this difficult moment and it give me a small but much needed dose of energy and motivation. It also made me feel even more like a failure. What I wrote and what my peers wrote on the Miro board is the definition of what is happening in me right now: I’m not making art, I’m shutting down, I’m quitting.
The part about volume made me freak out, same as the quote about perfectionism. It is an approach so unfamiliar to me. And because of that, perhaps even more drastically necessary.
This class comes as a wake up call. I still have a chance to turn things around. Difficult periods are part of life, and life is part of art.
What kind of art can I make with the tools and the time I have right now?
Also the idea of 21 might be a good challenge. Could it be just 21 photos of how I’m feeling that day? Not perfect, not deep, not really thought.
could it be 21 shades of a colour? 21 skies? 21 trips?
PS. This is a flow of consciousness coming out while I’m riding a taxi to the airport. Felt cute might delete later kinda thing :P
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